Randomness. Q&A1 2009

Do you plan on falling in love in 2009?

♣ I already am.

What are you doing tomorrow?

♣ Same old stuff.

Without stating the name, say something to someone you hate:

♣ May God bless you.

Britney Spears, Yes or No?

♣ So-so... she's a good performer, her songs are catchy, but she's not one good singer.

Do you like your life?

♣ Yuh.

Do you trust people easily?

♣ Depends on the vibe I get from the person.

Would you ever get a tattoo?

♣ No, even if I could.

Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

♣ Sunny.

Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes?

♣ Yes!

Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?

♣ Only on long trips...if I don't fall asleep first. At times, when it's really traffic; to distract myself from stupid drivers.

When was the last time you talked to your number 1?

♣ Huh?

Is there a person who knows every thing or almost every thing about you?

♣ Yeah, I think mom then the husband. hehe.

Do you plan on moving out within the next year or two?

♣ A timely question! If the situation calls for it...it's still fifty-fifty.

Who is number two on your friends list?

♣ FS: Raja; on MySpace it's Lon.

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?

♣ Awhile ago, when the husband woke up.

What were you doing at midnight last night ?

♣ Blog-surfing. Downloading songs.

Has anyone ever told you they love you?

♣ Yes,

Do you miss the way things used to be?

♣ At times. Wait, which part of my life would that be?

Last person who called you?

♣ Mom, checking up on us, updating me with the latest happenings.hehe.

Would you ever live with anyone on your top friends?

♣ I've lived with those bunch since forever.

How many pills do you take a day?

♣ None. I don't like taking any kind of medicine.

Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?

♣ No.

Favorite place to be?

♣ Home. ;)

Have you ever intentionally made someone jealous?

♣ Haven't we all done that? LOL

Do you like someone?

♣ Yes. :)

Last person to message you?

♣ Dido

Last person you held hands with? When?

♣ Raja, at the mall. He was so ecstatic with his new toy he wanted to go home already...held his had (more like wrung it actually) to keep him from running to the parking lot.hehe!

What was your first thought this morning?

♣ What am I gonna cook for lunch?

Have you ever broken a window on purpose?

♣ No.

In one word, how do you feel right now?

♣ Full. Alhamdulillah.

What do you want for your next birthday?

♣ A BABY! haha. :) That'd be really nice!

Where did you get the shirt you' re wearing?

♣ Zara.

Tallest person you know?
♣ The Korean guy who stalked me on my first year in college. He was about 6'2"- 6'3". Good friends know who that guy is.

Plans for tonight?

♣ Rest, watch DVD, get some more rest!

Where is your cellphone?

♣ On the table, waiting for Hassan's/CheChe's text.

Whose voice do you currently hear?

♣ Raja complaining about the game he's playing on PSP.

Would you ever trade your wardrobe with someone?

♣ If it's some Hollywood celeb, why not?! LOL

You have a Million dollars, what do you do with it?
♣ Save. Invest. Splurge!

Nonsense.

Just killing some time. I can't sleep as usual.
So I'm doing this random Q and A.

Do you have an older sister?
♦ No. I wish I had one.

Who was the last person you talked to last night before bed?
♦ Hamza. Visited him in his room before I went to pray fajr then dozed off at 8-ish. He's been quarantined for almost a week now.So sad, I know.

What's the first thing you think of when you hear the word "mayonnaise"
♦ My version of ranch dressing.

Who was the last girl you talked to?
♦ Che. We went shopping this afternoon.

Who was the last person you talked to in person?
♦ Halim.

Whats the closest thing to you thats liquid?
♦ An unfinished cup of coffee (from my brother also)

Something you're happy about?
♦ Mom and Hamid arriving from CDO on Wednesday; family reunion on the 26th.

What did you do Friday night?
♦ Took care of my sick hubby.

What are you doing tonight?
♦ Make dinner. It's Italian Night Tuesday provided we get home before 6pm.

Where are you right now?
♦(W)Rec(K) room.

In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
♦ We don't have winter here, I wear either though.

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
♦ Nah. I'm with family.♥

How long can you go without your mobile phone?
♦ Purty long. It's a bit liberating, really. :)

Who did you last call babe/baby?
♦ Hmm...?

What time did you go to sleep last night?
♦ 8-ish..in the morning.

What/who woke you up today?
♦ Raja slamming the door.

Are you excited for the future?
♦ Hmm.. Yeah, Kinda. :)

When was the last time someone yelled at you?
♦ I don't remember if there were any instances. Prolly when I was younger.

Things you did today?
♦ Checked on HD. Visited our grandparents. Texted with HD (he went to the doctor for a check-up). Went out with my brothers, sis-in-law and our kids to shop. Checked HD when we got home. Had dinner. Chatted with mom and bros on the phone then on YM later on. Played video games (PC,PSP,PS3). Checked on HD. Put Raja to bed. Texted with HD since he didn't want me to stay long around him in the quarantine room. Blah blah blah. You want to know what kind of pizza we had awhile ago? LOL

Do you own a polo shirt?
♦ YUH.

Are you excited for the new year?
♦ We really don't celebrate new year, but I look forward to family bondings and stuff. Exchange gifts. :D

What are you going to do after this?
♦ It's 3am now so I think I'll just wait for fajr to pray then sleep..pray that I do fall asleep!

What was the last thing you drank?
♦ A glass of water.

Do you have any kids?
♦ Just one. *sigh*

When was the last time you threw up?
♦ When we got home after Raja's birthday. I had a really bad headache the whole time we were at Corinthians.

Name 3 people who made you smile today?
♦ Raja. Rashad. Aleeyah, my 2y/o cousin.

What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
♦ Negotiating with the Sandman. Haha!

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
♦ Eating pizza with Halim.

What is your favorite holiday?
♦ Definitely EID. Celebrating the end of Ramadan or Eid'l Adha.

Have you ever been to another country?
♦ Yuz.

What is the last thing you said aloud?
♦ "Ok, I'll get you a couple and take 'em to your room." HD asking for pizza also. Dang..only Raja sleeps early in this house!

What is the best ice cream flavor?
♦ Oh, this one's a toughie! I love Raspberry Rapture of FIC, but HD's pretty much also a staple in the bedroom fridge. :D

What are you wearing right now?
♦ PJs.

Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
♦ Yes.

When was the last time you ran?
♦ Early afternoon..was running after Rashad.hehe.

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Still not sleepy!

45 Random Facts About Jodi

1. My name is Johannah.

2. My nickname is Jodi, derived from the first syllables of my name JOhannah and my (former/maiden) surname, DIron. It still applies though, my family name now is DImaporo. How about that?!

3. I am thirty years old. — I think it’s hilarious at times when people think I’m in my teens. But I also find it utterly annoying at times when people think I’m in my teens. Haha. Repetitive, much? Baby faced? I think. Vertically challenged? Blame it on the genes. Bwahahaha.

4. I am Muslim. Technically, I am three-fourths Muslim, and a quarter Christian. My maternal grandmother, Esther hails from Narvacan, Ilocos Sur, and Lolo Lindy is full-blooded Maranao, so my mom’s a mestiza. Lola’s reverted to Islam though (her Muslim name is Mariam), and we’ve never thought of ourselves as anything but Muslim. So there.

5. I am a wife and a mother of one. Our neighbors here in Manila initially thought that Hamza was my older brother and Raja, our bunso. Harhar!

6. I should have been a mother of two, but things happen for a reason…

7. I love family gatherings. ‘Nuff said.

8. I wished I had continued playing the piano. Maybe if I did so I would’ve been really good with it by now. I can still widow, though.

9. I am trying to get over my obsession with Havaianas. Maybe I’ll stop when I get my last batch of orders from abroad. Have to stay away from Multiply more often! Hmm… Anyone wanna buy them?

10. I’d like to start collecting cameras now. Not digicams. They’re too generic.

11. I started writing when I was in the sixth grade. I had journals and wrote essays, articles in the school paper in high school and college. I’m still so into writing. Big thanks to Mrs. Berran (PWU-JASMS) and Ms. Abueva (DCFI), my English teachers, for inspiring me to write.

12. I used to be a text addict.

13. Texting in StIcKy CAps is not and never was my style.

14. I don’t text using short cut either.

15. I love sweets. I love pastries. It’s a tie for me between chocolate bars and cakes. But I’m not so much into ice cream.

16. I used to feel nauseated with the aroma of coffee. But I’m starting to like it now; I’ve even gone as far as to drinking it. My husband is ecstatic with that development. HAHAHA!

17. I don’t like it when bands change their sound to make their music more mainstream just so they could have more fans. That’s artistic suicide.

18. I get really irritated with people who copy other people’s stuff. Plagiarism is punishable by law.

19. I want to have a pet… maybe some fish or a pair of African love birds. I had a cat with “odd eyes” (one blue, one yellow), but he ran away (found a mate).

20. I can live without a cellphone. I’ve tried it… it’s quite liberating, actually.

21. I put my thoughts to words in ink better than in speech. Obvious much?

22. My hair is long and straight…and past my waist already.

23. I don’t scare easily, nor do I get irked by yucky stuff right away.

24. I have a habit of walking around the house at ungodly hours (told you I can’t sleep).

25. I also like it a lot when I have the house to myself.

26. I am unofficially obsessive-compulsive.

27. I procrastinate. I like playing things crunch. It gives me an adrenaline rush.

28. I graduated with a degree in Psychology.

29. I love giving out Psychological tests and analyzing their answers.

30. I miss taking REAL Psychology exams myself.

31. I want to learn Rorschach. Calling the attention of Ma’am Agda, I believe you owe us a couple of sessions?

32. Sleep is something that is a bit alien to me. Maybe I was a vampire in a past life. HAHAHAHA!

33. When I do get to sleep, I do not move–I sleep and wake up in the same position. Hamza and my family can attest to that. I can probably sleep in a four-inch wide bench and not fall.LOL

34. I like having the comforter cover me from my head down to my feet. Yes, including my face. Weird. I know, I know.LOL

35. I’m a movie freak.My family and I love watching movies on the big screen. I love movie channels also. Tune me in to any movie channel and throw away the remote, I won’t mind. I can name which movies the actors/actresses acted in in their past films.

36. I have high tolerance for physical and emotional pain.

37. I definitely detest rodents! YUCK!

38. Lifestyle Network is one of my favorite channels.

39. I wish Ina Garten could adopt me. I just love her and her show.

40. I am absolutely looking forward to the dates November 17, 21 and 30.

41. I have regretted the times when I stopped school. I could have been a doctor by now. Blech.

42. I splurge a lot buying stuff online. Another habit I have to break.

43. Currently thinking if I should go home to the province or to Las Piñas for Qutba.

44. I’d really like to go back to school. But there are also other things I want to do… I’m still weighing my options.

45. I fear death and the afterlife. What we have here right now is very temporary. If you are getting everything that you want now… do you think you’ll still be in the same predicament in the akhira? I think not.

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- Friendster blog post, published September 16, 2008

http://pattycake.blog.friendster.com/2008/09/45-random-facts-about-jodi/

Random Thoughts *I'm Missing Mode*

It's been almost a week since I got home from my eventful trip in Marawi and Cagayan de Oro. I'm now back in the boring conundrum I call "life". Haha. No, I'm not being sarcastic. I'm more homesick than anything else right now.

Hmm.. what do I miss about the city with a lake? It's not like I go out there to meet up with my friends, to make 'tambay' at CommCen (although I'm not sure if that's still the 'in' thing to do, and I never had that much of a chance hanging out there even then). I think it's more of the feeling that I'm with family--being with the people I know, and those whom I know as well. It's catching up with your aunts who've seen you during your awkward years when the chilly climate of Marawi turned me into some sort of burnt-looking marshmallow (yeah, nakakaitim talaga ang climate ng Marawi, at least for me), and they knew everything that went on with everyone who lived in the city. I miss the food! Pyaren. Randang. Pisasaten. Bakas.HAHA! All the yellow spicy food, where everything is yellow, even the rice..it's kyuning, right? I miss seeing relatives come over the house to hang out and exchange stories and opinions on various topics. I miss their loud voices, the laughter, the banter. The never-ending coffee refills. The broa that goes along with the coffee (or brua? Not bruha, ha!). And the one and a half hour long good-byes. Haha.

I miss the company of my friends, basically my batchmates, whom I hadn't had the chance to see for such a long, long time. I thought that coming home would equate to some sort of informal reunion, but amidst the buzz of activity, unfortunately there was no time to get to it. Well, I did Khuna, in all her pregnant-but-still-beautiful glory, who came to my place in spite of her condition and the chaotic atmosphere, to show support and make chismis as well. I don't think I was able to thank you properly my dear sister... I hope I can return the favor to you in the future, Inshaallah.

I also miss the chilly foggy mornings, and the way you see air come out when you talk..feeling abroad-ish.*snickers* I miss the view of MSU from the terrace of our home, the lush green meadow (meadow daw..ok, basak!) spread before your eyes, and the trees, that line up the road going to Marantao on one side, and to Tuca on the other. Especially that humongous one where the elders say is home to some 'people' we can't see.

I miss Ramadhan in Marawi. That's when I learned to drive.LOL! I was fifteen then, and my classmate would come to our place and help me with the mechanics of driving. But we didn't practice there. I practiced outside the house, picking up our classmates from their homes as I learned how to drive. But it wasn't just about that. It was bonding with them. I miss how we're welcomed by our classmate's family to his/her home to share with us their spread. I miss the colorfully lit houses, seeing people coming out from the mosque after Tarawih, with the women garbed in their colorful muqnas, and the men in their kimon or malongs.

Oh, I did get the chance to see my alma mater, Dansalan College, now called Dansalan College Foundation, Inc. (I don't know exactly when "FI" was formally added to the name). It has changed a lot since. Well, I fathom it would, the last time I was there was during my high school graduation.*smiles at the thought* Seeing the school brought me into a nostalgic mood. I remembered the funny and sad things that went on between me and my batchmates and other schoolmates, our teachers who were our strict mentors inside the classrooms but warm friends outside. I remembered standing on the soccer field during practices for the city-wide silent drill competition (which we won, by the way), the never-ending band practices and school activities and our "wholesome" after-school (weekend) adventures, which sometimes meant unscheduled trips outside Marawi (translation: takas sa magulang, going to Iligan or Timoga or Tinago or anywhere else to de-stress from the pressures of school). It was all for fun. Seeing the school and looking back at all those memories made me feel just one thing. OLD.

CDO is a different story. I only spent two years there unlike Marawi where I spent four. It wasn't as exciting of a life, but it was exciting nevertheless. We were what Maranao people would describe as masamok. But we were actually harmless folk; we're just plain masamok. I miss those times I was with my friends in XU. To the administration there, we were like an itch that wouldn't go away, because we made our presence felt and they didn't like it, considering the fact that we didn't even reach seventy; they very much preferred we were just on the side..the very far side. But now, they can't ignore the number of Muslim students in that place. And I'm happy with the way things had come about. You kids have it easy now, be glad you weren't around during our time! But more so I miss being with my family who is based there. My mom, my four other brothers, Ina, and everyone else who lives in that spacious bungalow I call home. I'm going to miss the banter by the porch where we laugh louder than the tambays by the store across the street.LOL Halim, no one's gonna make macaroni for you now.Bleh! Hamsa, make up your mind, ok? Weigh your options, but your option A is a No-No. And mom, better learn how to tinker with the pc and the net so you won't have to bother us again when the arrow on the screen's not moving 'coz the mouse is stuck by the wrist pad.LOL Kisses to Halil who's looking more gwapo as he gets older and Ina who's always startled with Raja's constant slamming of the door. As to Hamid. I'll miss you "Jimmy" ways, but not just yet coz you're here in the Metro.Hehe!

Hmm...it would be good to go back there now... I miss how life in the south is so laid back. It's not that I mind being in the metro.. I love it here! Most of my life was spent here. But it's just stressful. With the traffic. And the noise pollution (although I'd choose to live here in the Scout area than go back to the subdivision where it's too damn quiet..sorry lolo & lola.hehe!). And the never-ending expenses. And you're so far away from family. Hmm... It would really be good to go home. But I'm not ready yet. I'mma miss the malls here. And Raja's gonna look for his Gardenia bread.Hehe!

Hmm... Home. Where're those ruby red shoes?

I'm Wholesome!

This rating was determined based on the presence of the following words:

>kill(1x)

Errr....

Today wasn't a good day. Well, there was a little part of it which was good (HJR), but the rest of the day was crap.

Should I tell you why?

Maybe another time.. my head's throbbing like crazy. I don't even know why I'm blogging. Hmm...Just letting it breathe, just letting my rage steam out, I guess. It's so messed up right now, you know?

Maybe that's what happens when you're thirty.

Reality hits you hard in the face.

03.29.08

crashed.

Into the abyss of nothingness.

I am floating.

I am unaware.

Of everything.

Of anything.

Of everyone.

I am unconscious.

Unfeeling.

Unclear.

I am what you see when you close your eyes.

A black, blank space.

-jpdd

October 26, 2006

So what.. It's about 4:51 in the morning and I can't sleep. Well, I'll sleep after Fajr, but that'll be around six in the morning the latest (an hour after prayer pa..hehe!). So what's new? It's not like i haven't done this before..not sleeping early, I mean.

Hmm.. We bought tickets earlier this evening. Be leaving for Mindanao on Thursday. Yey! I get to see my mom, my brothers, my ina (i hope you get well), my cousins, aunts and uncles..Everyone i haven't seen for the longest time! But we're not going there to vacation, really. My sister-in-law's getting married on Saturday, the 28th and she's really dissing that day. I guess when you're going to get married to some complete stranger then that wouldn't feel right, right? If that happened to me... I don't know... I probably would've ran away or something. I think it was brave of her to hang in there and cooperate with the whole thing. But then again, I don't think she had any choice either.

I love being a Muslim. I am grateful to be born into this religion. But it's more of the culture that I don't like really, I guess. Well, some of it. Sure, it is said in Islam that parents may choose for their children who they will marry. But in Islam, the daughter has a choice to accept or decline whoever it is they have chosen for her. The difference of the religion to that of our culture (Maranao), is that irregardless of what the daughter feels, the wedding will commence and there is nothing that she could do to stop it...unless maybe if the parents were understanding and considerate enough of the girl's feelings.

That's probably the only thing I don't like in my culture...Arranged marriages. I mean, sure, it worked for some, and I respect that and I'm really happy for you, but it's just not my cup of tea. It's not like I'm saying that you go and run off with the first guy/girl you find and ride off the sunset, but at least I want to have a say on matters like that. Marriage is a lifetime commitment, and I wouldn't want to spend it with a complete stranger. Or jerk for that matter. Just because he/she comes from an illustrious family that everybody wants to be a part of doesn't make her a god or a goddess. I wouldn't want my child to be wed to someone he/she barely knows. I've seen families come together and then later break apart like fallen legos because the guy's and girl's parents don't get along anymore and it's just sad. I mean, weren't they the ones who made the arrangement in the first place? And then they break up their kids' marriage (just when they have fallen in love with each other) because they belong to opposing parties in politics and have decided to run against each other or simply because they don't get along anymore? This isn't something that I'd want for my child or future children (assuming that Allah (swt) gives us more than one). I'm lucky that my parents didn't force me into doing something (or anything) that I didn't want. Mom, dad..love you to pieces!

Wala lang.. just made me think.

And I guess it's because it's almost, almost five in the morning and I'm still awake.

Oh well... du'as to you sister... you'll get through this...

We got your back.. We love you!

Freakin' Sleepless in the City

Oh pfft... I'm in my sleepless mode again...

Time flies... regardless whether you're having fun or not. It's been a couple of days since my last posting and I have to say that I haven't had a humanely decent sleep for the longest time. Funny I should feel this way, like I'm not used to not getting enough sleep... I've been an insomniac since I was ten! (I think that's why I didn't grow that much..haha! [if only I knew about that cherifer thingy..haha!])

It's a little easier now...In some ways I've come to terms with it. As I said, it was inevitable. There's no use crying over something that's no longer there, of someone who's never coming back. Acceptance is the only thing to do. That and moving on. It was fated to be that way... it's useless to argue with God about something that He has already decided on. And who am I to argue when I do not own my life?

We don't have a whole conversation about it...just snippets of "I'm sad", and so on... the only times I do talk is when someone asks--and I give a straightforward explanation, the way the doctor explains to his patient his condition; very medical, very generic. Sometimes I forget he/she is gone; I'd be lying on my tummy and suddenly jerk right up thinking I'd squished him/her. Or I'd refuse to drink soda because it was bad for the baby. Then I'd remember and start spacing out, but only for a moment. Still, I'd space out.

My only comfort are the two men in my life... We're all stuck like glue-- we eat, play, sleep (just them, I just lie down and watch tv) and breathe together, 24/7, day in, day out. At night I watch them sleep--they're so alike down to their muted snores. It's good that they're there to keep whatever sanity I may have left, or I would've gone berserk and chewed on the keypad of this freakin' notebook.