Monday, September 24, 2007

Happy Birthday. :)


I miss my friends.

But I miss them more so this day.

Jiamerah. Jam. She's the brainy one in the group. She makes math seem like a breeze while the rest of us scratch our heads trying to figure out the problem. I miss how she talks with her hand covering her mouth... She laughs like that too. I didn't get it then and still don't get it now. Why do you cover your mouth so? Miss walking home from school with her, we had time to chat over girly things just by ourselves. I miss her air of seriousness for her studies, how determined she was to be on top and keep it that way. But she wasn't serious all the time. I miss her bouts of craziness also. For someone so smart with school stuff, it was weird to see her agonize over problems of the heart.

Rasliah. Rush. That's what she's called, but to family and close friends she is Khuna. What do I miss about her? Her chinky eyes that get more chinkier by the second when she and Leah are laughing over something (not at someone). One part of the jesters in the group, Khuna always manages to take things lightly; she finds humor in the things that happen around us, no matter how dreary it may seem. I miss her hearty laugh, and her kind ways. i miss driving all the way to Marantao to pick her up with the rest of the batch just to joyride and drive back there late at night. A pick-up full of kids. And to think I was only learning to drive.

Emily Azalea. Leah. The life of the party. I miss seeing her rush to the front of Laubach Hall for the flag ceremony. I miss her seeing the tandem Rush-Leah, wreaking havoc on anyone who crossed their path with their friendly-slash-merciless "banter" with whoever whenever someone's crush was around. I miss her making noise even when her voice is soft. Maingay na soft. Peace, Minangowao. I miss having to go to her house in Marinaut, buying all the bananacue on the way to her place, eating it all there and exchanging girly stories about school, friends, crushes and family. I miss seeing her mom, Tita Babie and her kindness. Reminds me of my mom. They both rock.

Aniraida. Anie. The baby in the group who got married two weeks after our high school graduation. The girl with the softest hands that I know. They're like a baby's butt. Yes, they were that soft. hehe. I miss her laugh. Really loud laughter. I miss her child-like (or childish?) ways, how she jokes around and laughs until tears roll down from her eyes. I miss her handwriting too; cursive, very feminine. But she writes slow too. I remember Ma'am Aman getting irritated at times because we, particularly she, wasn't done copying whatever was written on the board yet.

Julieta. Doyette. I miss her laugh as well. Not that it was loud or anything. She's probably the only person I know who can "laugh out loud" inside a library because she doesn't make a sound. You'll just see her shoulders violently shaking like so, and you'll know she's laughing he hiney off. I miss having to go to her place on weekends for serious one-on-ones. To talk about problems bugging me or about hers, just random stuff we can think and talk about.

Noroden. Dino. The rose among the thorns. I don't remember how he became part of us, but he did. He's one hell of a serious guy (he was the SGO President in our Senior year) and was very involved in school activities. I miss how serious he looks one minute and gets all funky when we tease him to one of the girls (Hanipha Madale). He gets all red and acts funny, but I don't think there was really any romantic inclinations going on between the two. I miss his witty remarks, and his antics too.

Funny how I miss how they all laugh--that was probably all we did. We rarely fought, but that doesn't say we're not sincere with each other. We just all fit in nicely, us seven. We just clicked.

That friendship started way back in 1992.

We now all have lives of our own, families and careers to tend to.

But even though miles, longitudes, latitudes, and time zones separates us.

We're still friends.

And will remain so, until the end.

Thanks for all the good memories, and the few rough patches that we had, too. I will forever treasure them. Best days of my once young life. Glad to have spent it with you.

Happy Birthday to us!

I love you!

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Inday, Inday!

Dahil sa tindi ng kahirapan sa probinsya, namasukan si Inday bilang katulong sa Maynila. Habang ini-interview ng amo…

Amo: Kelangan namin ng katulong para mag ayos ng bahay, magluto, maglaba, magplantsa, mamalengke, at magbantay ng mga bata. Kaya mo ba ang lahat ng ito?

Inday: I believe that my trained skills and expertise in management with the use of standard tools, and my discipline and experience will contribute significantly to the value of the work that you want, my creativity, productivity and work-efficiency and the high quality of outcomes I can offer will boost the work progress.

Amo: [nosebleed]

Kinabukasan, habang nasa opisina ang amo, may tumawag sa telepono.

Inday: Hi, you are calling in the midst of me cooking our lunch, my superiors aren't around. I'm the immediate person in support. How may i help you? If you wish to leave a message, an abrupt tone means your diverted to our voicemail.

Caller: [Ibinaba ang telepono]

Nakaraan ang dalawang araw, umuwi ang amo, nakitang me bukol si junior.

Amo: Bakit me bukol si junior?

Inday: Compromising safety with useless aesthetics, the not-so-well engineered architectural design of our kitchen lavatory affected the boy's cranium with a slight boil at the left temple near the auditory organ.

Amo: [nosebleed ulit]

Kinagabihan, habang naghahapunan.

Amo: Bakit maalat ang ulam?

Inday: The consistency was fine. But you see, it seems that the increased amount of sodium chloride (NaCl) affected the taste drastically and those actions are irreversible. I do apologize.

Amo: [nosebleed na naman]

Tapos, sabi pa...

Amo: Bakit tuwing paguwi ko, nadadatnan kitang nanunuod ng tv?!

Inday: Because I don't want you to see me doing absolutely nothing.

Amo: [hinimatay]

Kinabukasan, sinamahan ni Inday si junior sa principal's office dahil di makapunta ang amo at donya.

Principal: Sinuntok ni junior ang kanyang kaklase.

Inday: It's absurd! It was never a fact that he will inflict a fight. I can only imagine how you handle schizophrenic kids on this educational institution. Revise your policies because they suck!

Principal: [nag resign]

Pagdating sa bahay, nandun na ang amo, galit na galit.

Amo: Inday, bakit nagkalat ang basura sa likod ng bahay?!

Inday: A change in the weather patterns might have occurred wrecking havoc to the surroundings. The way the debris are scattered indicates that the gust of wind was going northeast causing damage to the path it was heading for.

Amo: [nosebleed ulit]

Habang nagluluto si Inday ng hapunan, malikot si junior.

Inday: Stop your raucous behavior. It is bound to result in property damages and if that happens there will be corresponding punishment to be inflicted upon you!

Junior: [takbo sa CR, punasan ang nagdudugong ilong]

Pagkatapos magluto, nanood na ng TV si Inday. Nabalitaan nya umalis si Angel Locsin sa GMA 7.

Junior: Bakit kaya sya umalis?

Inday: Sometimes, people choose to leave not because of selfish reasons but because they just know that things will get worse if they'll stay. Leaving can be a tough act, and it's harder when people can't understand you for doing so.

Junior: [tuloy ang pagdugo ng ilong]

Dumating ang amo bago maghapunan.

Amo: Day! Bakit may rashes si Junjun?

Inday: Allergens triggered the immune response. Eosinophillic migratin occurs to the reaction site and release of chemotactic and anaphylotoxin including histamine and protaglandins. These substance results to increased circulation to the site promoting redness.

Amo: Sori?

Nung gabing yon, me nag text ke Inday. Si Dodong, ang driver ng kapitbahay, gusto maki pag text-mate.

Inday: To forestall further hopes of acquaintance, my unfathomable statement to the denial of your request - Petition denied.

Di nagla-on, dahil sa tyaga ni Dodong, nagging syota nya rin si Inday. Pero di tumagal ang kanilang relasyon, at nakipag-break si Inday ke Dodong.

Inday: The statute restricts me to love you but you have the provocations. The way you smile is the proximate cause why I love you. We have some rules to think of. We have no vested rights to love each other because the upper household dismissed my petition!

Dodong: Perhaps you are mistaken, what you seem to contrive as any affections for you are somewhat half-hearted. I was merely attempting to expand my network of interests by involving you in my daily recreation. Heretofor, you can expect an end to any verbal articulation from myself

Me dumaan na mamang basurero, at narinig ang usapan ni Inday at Dodong.

Basurero (sabi ke Inday): Be careful in letting go of the things you thought are just nothing because maybe someday you'll realize that the one you gave away is the very thing you've been wishing for to stay.

Kinagabihan, kinausap si Inday ng kanyang amo...


Inday: Being a third party doesn't mean that you're destroying a relationship. It only means that you make two souls realize that they are not meant to be!


More Inday Quotes:



I pity you for you have degraded your very own pride and dignity by resorting to this despicable behavior just for the sake of having something to feed your fetish appetite for wealth and i hope that one day you'll be rational enough to realize that you should not use other humans as means in the attainment of your ends. As what the great philosopher Kant uttered, 'treat a man as an end in himself'.
- sagot ni inday sa dugu-dugu gang na tumawag sa bahay ng amo nya

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Attached herewith is a list of proposed acquisition in line with my proposal to upgrade your household facilities. I have already made initial survey of current market prices. Note however that prices could vary depending on the prevailing exchange rate and aggregate supply and demand which we also monitor on an hourly basis.
- si inday, nagpapaalam para mamalengke

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The dwindling resource of hydrogen2 and oxygen present, coupled with the stabile amount of precise heat in the thermal environ of the vessel, resulted in the premature hydration of the 'Oryza Sativa', hence the calefaction factor was rendered lost and wandering when the algid formation came about.
- sagot ni inday kung bakit HILAW ang kanin

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Ipomea aquatica has become the constant ingredient to this filipino delicacy which is very helpful in the digestion during the peristaltic process of the food we intake. Due to the continuous rains and floods, the harvest of the said vegetables has lessen the production in the market.
- banat pa ni inday sa amin kung bakit walang kangkong sa nilutong sinigang

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Drunken tiger shrimp and blue lobster meat, cut diagonally and caviar served with milagrosa rice (red variety) and apricot sauce. Vegetables in balsamic vinegar splashed with extra virgin olive oil garnished with mint leaves. Lychee and peach salad
- inihanda ni inday para ibaon ni jun-jun sa daycare

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Physical stress and excessive work may result to serious damage to one's body. It is therefore essential that once in a while, we take a break from our usual routine to replenish our lost energy.
- sagot ni inday sa amo niya ng ayaw syang payagan mag day-off

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borrowed it from my multiply business contact..i was only gonna put a link but there seems to be a prblem with mine (yes, i allowed pop-ups for this window temporarily). anyway, i hope you found it amusing as well. :)


Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Broke(n) Back Jodi. Humor(less) Me

Last week, I learned that I can survive on water alone.*guffaws*

I broke my back last week...okay, maybe strained it. Don't ask why anymore, because I probably wouldn't tell you anyway. Let's just say that for a brief moment, I thought that I was Supergirl and I knew the answer to world hunger. *hyuk! hyuk!* So, from Tuesday afternoon to Thursday, I was suffering a fever of 39-40 degrees celsius with the pain from my lower back shooting down to my knees. Yes, it hurt even when I stood up. I was told by Hamza's older sister to just take things easy and lie down for a couple of days until the pain subsides, which I in turn, faithfully did for a couple of minutes. I've lost appetite for food, and found myself drinking water and juice only. My God, I was living off on fluids for days, and I was beginning to get scared coz I knew if I didn't get anything to eat, I'd be puking bile soon. Come Saturday, I was trying my best not to wither in pain because my dad keeps asking what was wrong and I didn't want to tell even though my back was killing me and the pain was beginning to spread upward. I didn't want to go see a doctor because I don't like hospitals (although I usually find myself in it one way or another), so I opted for the good old neighborhood masseuse/manghihilot, Mimi. I knew I should've gone to her earlier but Hamza believed it would go away so I sat it out. I thought too, that my high tolerance for pain would win over it, but I would find myself all teary-eyed come evening when it got cold because of the typhoons.

And so Mimi made massaged my back. It was my first time to see a manghihilot-slash-masseuse so I told her to be gentle with my back because it was broken. Oh, she was gentle...as gentle as the winds of Egay. *laughs* My God, I was gripping the metal bars of our bed like hell, my knuckles turned white! I was too embarrassed to yelp so I kept my head buried under the pillow and bore the pain. She said in Cebuano, 'maraming hangin katawan mo, 'te'...I told her 'ang tawag dyan, air pockets.' *waaaahhhhh... humor me. haha!* She worked on me for more than an hour. After my ordeal with her, I felt all black and blue, but for some reason, I felt less pain on my back and legs. I feel better now, but I have to see her a couple more times. I'm contemplating seeing a doctor, just for good measure. I just want to know if everything's finally ok with me, so I can get back to saving the world, and do that darned test that i've been putting off for the longest time (some thyroid test thingy).

I know some people find it weird how I still have to do things when I can very well just order other people around to do these things for me... yes, that's what servants are for, and they're paid to do things for your convenience and stuff, but I wasn't exactly born to just lie around and order other people around. I was born with a silver spoon, I admit, but I wasn't born an invalid. I don't mind getting my hands dirty. I enjoy getting my hands dirty. That's why I got like this (broken back). Anyway, I know I'll be getting back to work pretty soon (I'm still on slight vacation mode right now), but I'll be a lot more careful with the stuff I do. Oh, I'm glad to report too, that my appetite has come back, but I'm gonna try take things slow, all the extra weight I've been wanting to lose is now gone (I can give Marie France, Belo and Calayan a run for their money--I lost 10lbs in 5 days!), it might come back if I binged on a daily basis. hehe! My best friend now is water, and I don't think I'll be changing best friends for quite a while.*bows*

sorry i couldn't think of a good title...it's in bad taste, i know. maybe my next blog wouldn't be as bad as this. haha!



Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Picture, Picture!

Sheer luck? I say it's just coincidence. We were supposed to go visit my grands, but the weather made it quite impossible for us to get out of our jammies and the room. I was contemplating on walking to the internet cafe in Timog (which was only a block down from our new place) inspite of the weather to contact my Havaianas dealer (I pre-ordered some pairs, hehe!) when lo and behold, the guys from the phone company came to install the landline. Coolness! After awhile the guy who was gonna install my internet connection came. Coolness times two.:) Anyway, I just wanted to post some pics here... not of me, but of Rashad. Just when I thought that I had it all, I find out my card reader's smashed...something inside it is loose and it won't read my memory card.Raja, bad boy! >:-/ So, I'll just make do with what I have... good thing Che lent me her cd. I'll just post more pictures of Rashad when I got a new reader.:)

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p.s.

he's so like his father... laging nakakunot ang noo. lol

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Welcome, Khalil Rashad!

If only my computer had internet access, then I would've posted his picture here. Soon, when I've completely settled in our new residence..naks!
I'm talking about the newest addition to the family,
Khalil Rashad De Guzman Diron, my nephew.
Yup, my NEPHEW. One of my brothers' kid... Amir Hassan's.

WHAAAAT?

Yeah.
It's his.
He's married.
And he now has a kid.

Shocked with the revelation, huh? Don't be. It's his destiny. And he's happy.:)

All I can say is that the baby looks like his daddy.:) Another future heartbreaker in the family. hehe! I'll post the pics one of these days... I haven't quite figured out if I'm gonna subscribe to my old provider or get a new one.

Until next time... Ciao!



Thursday, July 5, 2007

Held Up...A High School Memoir. =)

My online buddy had a recent near death experience and shared his story to me through his blog (thanks, Ghostface!). Reading his blog triggered a memory that I experienced in high school which I think I'll never ever forget.

It was August 1994, and Cagayan de Oro was having its annual fiesta. We were high school seniors then, and my girl friends Jam, Khuna, Leah, Annie, Doyette and I decided to spend the weekend in CDO to join in on the festivities (which meant hanging out at LimKetKai Mall for shopping, foodtripping and skating on the rink. hehe!) We had all decided to go on a Friday afternoon since school days were from Sunday to Thursday. My five best girl friends and I decided to meet by the bus terminal in the afternoon but somehow only three of us made it. It was around four in the afternoon when Leah, Khuna and I decided to leave without the others. Had there only been cellphones that time. sheesh.

So anyway, we took the last trip Tomawis bus from Marawi to Iligan. A couple of minutes past five, we got to the Tomawis terminal but the Tourist bus from the terminal just across us had just pulled out from the driveway and left; that bus we saw was the last trip headed for Cagayan de Oro. Just our darn luck! What to do, what to do? We were stuck in Iligan City, and it was getting dark. Was there another bus going to CDO? Unfortunately, no. For that bus company anyway. So we decided to look for another mode of transportation that could take us to our destination. I don't remember though, if we went to snack for awhile...perhaps? Enlighten me dear Leah and Khuna...my old, wrinkled mind cannot fathom such details. hehe! Anyway, I do remember that it was already dark when we found this bus terminal. I don't know how we found it; I think Leah and Khuna asked around...I wasn't any help coz I couldn't speak Visaya to save my life back then. I do remember though that it looked dreadful. Well, ok, I may be exaggerating here, but this was a bus company which catered mostly to market merchants who lived in the outskirts of Iligan City...Pang masa kumbaga...Class C and D type folk. The bus was old, the seats were hard, and there was no airconditioning. I was silently contemplating spending the night at my Tita Yasmin's place, but if we did that, my mom would know coz for sure my aunt would let her know we were there and I didn't want my mom or any of my friends' moms to worry we weren't in CDO yet (because they we told them we'd leave after lunch). The conductor said the bus leaves at seven in the evening so we took the chance, boarded the Bachelor bus and waited for it to fill up.

We were the first ones in. Slowly, our worries faded and we became our enthusiastic selves again. Gosh, we haven't even gotten to CDO and we were already on an adventure (misadventure was more like it, now that I think of it). We were happily chatting away at the very back of the bus when these two men decided to sit on the seats in front of ours. They were of average height, and dark and hard-looking, like they've done time sometime, somewhere. Pay no mind though, they weren't bothering us, so we waited, chatted and waited until the bus slowly filled up with passengers, and the conductor announced that we were leaving for Cagayan de Oro.

As the bus pulled away from the terminal, the conductor began collecting fare from the passengers. We paid ours, and scanned the crowd we were with. No one looked suspicious, I thought to myself, but these two men in front of us kept speaking in hushed tones, like they were talking about a secret or something really important and they didn't want anyone to hear. We were singing songs (yes, we were singing and we didn't care that they could hear us) when crazy Leah would lean over casually and try to eavesdrop on the conversation of the two men. But they would stop whenever they see Leah (perhaps in their peripheral vision) that she was right behind them. Anyway, it was either in Naawan or after Naawan while we were still singing songs, the two men took out their hankies and folded it into a triangle. We could see everything, coz you know how the last row seats are elevated from the rest? Ours was like that too. So, as I was saying, we were singing, and they took out their hankies, I had the craziest feeling in the pit of my stomach that something wrong was going to happen. I swear I felt it. So while singing I nudged my friends to take off the jewelry that we had on and stuff them into our socks. By then, I saw the man sitting by the aisle take out his revolver. Dang, we were in deep sh*t.

He got out from his seat went to the driver's side, then the second man followed but stopped in the middle of the bus. Then he announced in Visaya that we were being held up. Night time and in the middle of no where. In a bus with two hold-uppers. God. You could probably imagine all the blood draining out from our faces; we were so quiet that you could hear a pin drop. I was so scared because I was the one keeping our money, and it was stashed in the Guess? beltbag that I borrowed from Hassan. We were told to put our hands behind our heads and bend down so our heads were touching our thighs. Cool. They wouldn't see my beltbag. God, what a doofus. I was about to die and I was thinking about my beltbag. I began to think about my family; mom, my dad and my brothers. I didn't know if I'd be able to see them again. I saw my life flash before my eyes. I swear...everything that happened to me--good and bad experiences from when I was a kid to that very moment, all the people who meant alot to me, my friends, acquaintances, I saw it all in a flash. I got distracted when the guy with the gun said to give them all our stuff--jewelry, money, whatever was valuable. So the second man went from passenger to passenger, getting money from their wallets, their watches and bags. When he got to us, he didn't get anything because we had already stuffed our loot inside our socks and my beltbag's tucked on the side under my shirt where he couldn't see. Poor Khuna in her fright managed to take off the gold ring that hugged tight on her finger. Then the two men discussed where they were going to get off. They seemed so fidgety; that was probably their first time to do such thing. I think it was past El Salvador when they decided to get off. The second they got off the bus, the driver slammed on the gas pedal, and zoomed off to Cagayan de Oro.

The passengers inside were in hysterics. Some were crying, others still in shock with what had just transpired. I felt sorry for one man, he said that he just got home from abroad, and the two took his duffel bag with them. Once calmed, passengers agreed to go to the nearest police station to report the crime. i got the wristwatch from my sock and it said that it was already past eight. Leah, Khuna and I decided not to join them as we have already arrived in Cagayan de Oro. In one piece, Alhamdulillah. So, when the bus stopped by the main road and Velez st., all three of us got off, got in the nearest cab and directed it to the mall.

We were still a bit shocked with our latest adventure (the Wolves have the best bits to tell), but we were too excited to be at the mall at night by ourselves to even talk about it, so we ate and skated and commuted again to Khuna's place, to Balulang.

That night, we laid down in the dark and recounted our experience. For a brief moment I though to myself what lucky asses we were for being alive. I mean, they could've done something really harmful to us if they'd wanted to; we were sitting right behind them and we were loud and all that. But I guess they let us off because we were just kids. Or maybe they didn't do anything to us because they werent' really hardened criminals, just people who were in dire need and had nothing else left to hang on to...I dunno? But what was important was that we were alive and well. If only they hadn't gotten Khuna's ring.

The following day was a blur...I don't really remember what happened after. hehe! But I think we went home to Marawi a little earlier than scheduled. No buses this time, just those private vehicles that travel straight to Marawi City. I didn't tell mom what happened to us, she would've had a heart attack and grounded me for the rest of my senior year. I did tell her about it four years after, though, when Sehawie and some of the Wolves came to visit me at home and asked me to recount that friggin' experience with mom around...Busted!

Anyway, moral of the story... stick to the schedule. If things go awry, and you feel like you're not up to it (going somewhere, doing something), then don't do it. You might end up in a situation you might not want to be in if you do. Second moral of the story... let your parents know where you are, what you're doing and who you're with. I know it sounds corny and it's so totally uncool (especially when you're in those 'emo' years), but it's important that they know your whereabouts because just in case you're in a fix and you have to call them and stuff, your a** won't get fried.



Sunday, June 17, 2007

(In)Dependent

I'm the type of person who values one's independence. Not in the sense that prefer to spend hours (or days even) away from my family and friends, but independence in the sense that I'd like to be able to be on my own every now and then, to be able to reflect and do certain things by myself.

When I got married to my husband, I slightly said goodbye to my independence. I was with him all the time... or shall I say he was with me all the time... well except when he was at work and I was at school/work. It was fun, and I enjoyed his company thoroughly (I wouldn't have allowed my parents to have me married to him if he had the humor of a dead toad!), although I sort of longed for the days when I could go mall-hopping-slash-shopping-slash-food-tripping by my lonesome. I used to do that; go mall-to-mall from Makati to Ortigas to North Edsa in one day. I knew he wouldn't allow that. Aside from the fact that it was impermissible for an unmarried Muslim lady/woman to go about town without a mahram (a male relative or husband if married), he was the type who loved to do things together. hehe!

Then came our little boy. When Raja came out (unwillingly, I might add), I bid with finality, goodbye to those days. I had a feeling I'd be stuck with this little critter until the day comes that he finds it remotely gross to hang out with his mother. So he and I spend countless hours doing completely almost everything: watching cartoons and soaps, kiddie shows and documentaries, playing with cars and choppers, or singing songs. When Hamza's free from work, we all go out together, visiting our favorite haunts, watching movies and gorging down on food. Sure, there were times when he and I would part ways for a while so I can shop in peace and he can go gymming, but only for a while (and I'm not complaining, ok!). But still, it'd be nice if I had a day completely all to myself and not worry about my kid's cute a**, or my husband asking me where his stuff were. *peace, hun!*

That day did come one time, though. I think it was last week, when my mother-in-law came to visit Raja. She went to Mindanao and didn't see him for over a month... so the day after she arrived, she together with her kids dropped by our place to visit the little boy and to update us on the latest news regarding last month's election...the dirtiest ever. She didn't really ask if they could "borrow" Raja; I think it was me who told them that Raja could spend a couple of days with them. I think Raja was excited too; well, they told him that they'd be going to Timezone first so he was so ok with the idea. hehe. I was too, although in a different way. 'Coz, once and for all, I'd finally have time to myself. And I have longed for that for the longest time. And it was here. I was free. Finally. Yes.*sigh!*

I was excited the first few hours after they'd left. But after a while, when all my hype on freedom has died down, when Hamza had finally called it a night (he works graveyard shift), I was left to my lonesome. And my initial thought of freedom and independence and doing all the stuff that I haven't done in a long time didn't seem so fun anymore... I realized that I miss the little critter and was bored.

I was bored and I missed my family. I mean, there I was, with all the time in my hands, with Hamza upstairs snoozing in the room and Raja with his Mommy Lydee and titas, and I didn't know what to do. I was so lost. I was just sitting on the couch by the living room, blankly staring at the tv (which wasn't on, by the way). I caught myself feeling reminiscent... recalling those days when he was a completely behaved little gentleman and the times when he just drove me nuts ("Raja put your toys away, puhleeease!").I guess I had been doing this for so long now that I do not know what else to do.

I didn't know how to be alone anymore.

I know that there're a thousand other things that I can spend my time on, but I've been a wife and a mom for quite a while now that I didn't realize I wasn't the same person anymore. I dunno if I should be happy about it or not... perhaps the former. We're all so together that we're practically joined at the hip.

Well, to make the long story short... Hamza and I went to visist him at Las PiƱas the day after and spent the weekend there with Hamza's mom, sisters and brother. hehe.

Now that I'm back to my old grind (Raja and I're together again, 24/7) and I'm wishing I had my temporary freedom back, I know I'd be missing him terribly if I "lend" him to my mom-in-law or my own mom...He's part Hamza and me... without him or my hubby... I wouldn't know where I'd be.



Friday, May 4, 2007

Flyers For Sale.LOL

I was watching a program on ABS-CBN (okay, it was a soap!), then a commercial came on. It showed the Probe's features for that week and one was about Lanao del Sur and the coming elections so I decided to wait up for it.

After the late night news, Probe came on. The strains of the azan, the masjids, the people performing prayer, the sight of Banggolo(!) with all the streamers and posters hanging and plastered everywhere brought a wave of homesickness. Oh, I wish I could go to Mindanao even for just a short time! Anyway, back to the feature, they interviewed a bunch of people about what goes on before, during and after elections, when and where cheating starts and what measures are being done in order to control it. But one particular part of the feature that caught my attention was the bit where they showed two samples of flyers of certain candidates with money stapled onto it. Both flyers were from former re-electionists, one of which is the sister of a congresswoman (also a re-electionist) and the other, that of my UNCLE's.

GOD. I didn't know whether to laugh or to cry when I saw that. But the former took the better part of me. It was embarrassing... I mean, of all flyers from the hundreds of candidates (okay, maybe I'm exaggerating here), they had to pick one of my relative's. And to think that it's not even the ARMM elections. Sheesh! But then, it's common knowledge to us that this stuff really happens. I'd be a hypocrite if I say my relatives who ran didn't do that, and I'd be calling you the same thing if you said your politician relative/s didn't.

I mean, c'mon, let's all be honest here... even if you belong to a family of politicians, if you do not have money to give to the voters, the leaders, the COMELEC, you're nothing. Like that guy said on tv (with that thick Maranao accent), "Kung wala kang pera, sino ka para iboto ko?" True, true. It's sad how we people complain over the lack of progress in our province when it is also us who elected them into those positions by eagerly selling our votes, our rights and dreams to a better Lanao.

It's so discouraging every time this happens. And to think they also use the Qur'an so the pledgee (read: the one who receives the money) will follow through with the transaction (read: vote for the candidate he has committed to vote). Tsk,tsk,tsk... Jeez. I admit I find it morbid, but what can I do? It's so rampant, it's like the plague, really.

I admit (again) that I, just like any of the younger generation born to political families, have aspirations to build a better place that we call our home. But whenever the election fever strikes, I get discouraged. It's a sad plight, but who knows, one of these days, it just might end. Inshaallah! Like they say, there's always light at the end of the tunnel.

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Seeing all the election posters hanging and plastered everywhere made me laugh... I wonder if Mr. Abalos has the ba**s to go to Lanao and tear down all the candidates' election paraphernalia.

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bato-bato sa langit, ang tamaan... may bukol.

don't get offended here, this is my personal viewpoint...that's why it's in my blog. and besides, it's my relative's flyer that was featured, not yours.

Flyers kayo diyan!


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